No Worries

Today, Ellensburg is experiencing a classic local weather phenomenon: the fake-out. Through my dining room window the sunbeams turn to trapezoidal slats. The hills are less snowy, but the trees are still bare. (The girls keep asking me when the leaves will grow back.) Our mangy yorkie, in desperate need of a groom, stares longingly out the window. When I let him out, I discover the truth behind it all. Wind. The swaying of bare tree branches should have been my first clue, but the allure of a magnificent day sucked me right in. It is always windy here.

I sit and drink my tea, reflecting on my weekend so far. Have I done all my chores? Have I choreographed enough for Wednesday? Am I being too idle? Have I enjoyed my kids? What’s for dinner? What if I totally fail in life? I wonder how many people ask these questions daily. I certainly do. After a fully productive workday at the dance studio yesterday, I still sat up late, an anxiety ridden insomniac, hoping I’m doing a good enough job at life. WHY?

I finally fell asleep after streaming two episodes of Masterpiece Classics Downtown Abbey.

This morning is a new day. A chance to just be here and now. The girls and I make breakfast, oatmeal with almond butter and maple syrup. We talk about our day. Summer reminds me, “Mommy, you need to make your ‘ta-dooo’ list for today.” I take a deep breath and shake my head. I let the girls know the only thing we are going ta-do today is relax, play, and go see a movie with some friends.

I sit them on my lap and we rock to Frances England's "You and Me"....
There is so much to enjoy and so little to worry about. We're working on it.